Maybe I’m just at that part of my life, but it seems like I am constantly fucking things up. I’m not looking for anyone to tell me everything is going to be okay, or that “I’m not a fuck up”, because the truth is that I am. But I’m okay with that. Maybe messing up, will lead me to something right. And of not, at least it’s a lesson learned.. Right?

I’m really hoping its the first one, leading to something good. I could really use something good!

Hi. I’m Madie, and I like to make mistakes. Then i like to have my family hate me, and not talk to me because of it. I like to cry myself to sleep, wishing I could take it all back. But then, I reeeaallly like when people tell me to just say strong, when all I really feel like doing is breaking down. I like caring so much for someone, who now absolutely hates me even though it’s not my fault at all! I like having no where to run to, because then It just seems to slap me in the face again time after time. I like name calling, and even being told to leave and not come back. I like feeling alone, and like there is no where to turn. But you know what I really, really like?

Sarcasm.

Ever think your deepest darkest secrets would never get out? Well they do. And they turn around and slap you in the face.

Everyone makes mistakes…

That moment when you read your last years yearbook, and see where your bestfriend signed. Wishing I could I could go back to then…